SHE NEVER GOT A CHANCE

No more children running around asking mommy to play "Patty Cakes" with them
No more young teens blaring their music all thru the house
No more sink full of dishes to wash
No more cooking for a family six but in reality having a family of four
No more shopping for a full trunk full of food
No more loud laughter
No more hearing Jeannette screaming to get her the hairspray from the second bathroom
No more running late as I drove them to school
No more explaining to my boss that I missed work due my little girl had a stomach ache
No more yelling at Diana to get off the phone because it was already 1:00 in the morning

I could go on and on.  The thing is that they all grew up.  Two are growing older each year.  One never got a chance to grow into middle age.  Never got a chance to see her four beautiful children grow up.  She is gone now.  My beloved Jeannette.   I miss her.

A GOOD MEMORY OF HER

Another foggy morning in Fresno, California.  I cancelled my on going doctor appointment for my wrist injury today.  Didn't want to leave my house and just want to stay indoors and not have to go out in the cold and fight traffic.  I love cleaning my home while listening to music.  I played one of Jeannette's favorite songs on Celine Dion CD.   As I moved from room to room cleaning and straightening out my things a long tear ran down to my cheek.  I finally had to stop and sit down on my new comfy chair and sip on some good coffee.  Thoughts of Jeannette raced in my mind.  Memories of long ago when she was only 15 years of age.  She was a helper around the house.   Carpets were freshly vacumned everyday, dishes washed and bathrooms were scrubbed.  She did it all while I was at work.  I remember opening the front door and the aroma of vanilla penetrating my nostrils.  I would always ask her where is that smell coming from and she would smile and say she had a candle on in the living room.  Not only did she clean house, she also cooked some pasta or whatever was available and something she especially knew how to cook.   Then as I walked up the stairs to relax in my bedroom she would ask me if she could have one of her friends come over and of coarse I would say yes.  We had a very loving relationship during those formative years in her life. 

It's a good memory. 

SHE LOVED THIS FOR LUNCH

I finished making this for lunch right now and how I wish Jeannette could be here to enjoy it with me.  This was one of her favorites.  I remember how she loved garlic bread and a green salad with it too.   As I sit here with the dish in front of me I imagine my Jeannette getting seconds of it.

 

I have so much to be thankful for

Jeannette, Diana and Me, 2008

Thank You Jeannette for all the love you gave to me especially during your final year on earth. 
Thank You Diana for not only being a loving daughter but also my very best friend.
Thank You Daniel for you are not only a good son of mine but an awesome father to your three children and a loving husband to your wife.
Thank You Ashlee for being the best granddaughter and being a hard and smart worker.
Thank You Bianca for never talking back to me and being a good loving grandchild
Thank You Christian for always making my days brighter when I start to feel sad over loosing your auntie
Thank You Jacob and Nicholas and Melanie for being good grandchildren that love me so much.
Thank You Dad for taking good care of yourself so that I won't worry so much over you.
Thank You Brenda, Ron, Ben, Sam, Donna for doing all that you can for Dad.
Thank YOu to all my fans,  friends and loved ones that follow my blog and may you all have a Happy Thanksgiving.


Most of all, I want to thank God for giving one more day to spread his love.  I cherish everyday he gives to me.  My prayers go out to my other grandchildren named Loreal, Mathew, Shane and Conner that they are happy and healthy and especially never forget their mommy that loved them so very much.  I love you all and miss you. 

WE ALL MISS LOLO

ASHLEE' BIRTHDAY APRIL , 2010.  LOOK HOW HAPPY LOLO WAS BACK THEN WITH HER COUSIN. 

BE HAPPY

I have decided to be Happy tomorrow while I enjoy time spent with my daughter, Diana and grandchildren.  I know Jeannette would want that for me. 

JEANNETTE WILL NEVER NOT NEVER BE FORGOTTEN

As I live out my life here in Fresno, California I know that I will never have complete happiness.  No matter what happens in my life, Jeannette is not here to share it with me.  I miss her so very much. 

I SAY, "HAPPY THANKSGIVING" TO MY NETTLE

Thanksgiving is a day we all give thanks for all the blessings we received and so tomorrow on Thanksgiving, I am giving thanks to God for letting me have Jeannette for 37 years.  I certainly wish I would have had her for far more years but the beast of Breast Cancer took her from me. 

I remember her very last Thanksgiving of 2008.  Here in this picture she is smiling for the camera but I knew that she was in pain and scared so much to have to leave her children and loved ones.  I miss her more today than yesterday. 

At around 3:00 p.m. today, after being in bed and sad for the most of the day, I decided to visit my brother Ron.  He has a great testimony about his life and now has a personal relationship with God.  I needed some prayers and I knew he could help me.  Sure enough, he did pray for me and we talked about Jeannette and how would want me to be happy and not sad.  As I drove back to my home I thought my Jeannette and how much she loved me and always called me "Ma" and how close we finally got during her battle with cancer.  She realized alot during that time and came to the understanding that I truly was her most supportive person and with no strings attached.  I was there for her all the way.  

 

 

BEAUTIFUL JEANNETTE EILEEN 2008 

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I LOVE THIS PIC

I  came accross this picture of Jeannette and I at her graduation.  She looked so beautiful and was so happy that day. 

LoLo, Ashlee and Bianca back in the Day.

It seems like it was just yesterday that I took this picture of my three granddaughters.  Ashlee is 20 now and Loreal is 19 and Bianca will be 18 on December 8, 2012.  I wish they were little girls again so I could have them with me and also if that were so then Jeannette would still be here to be LoLo's mommy.  I really miss my relationship with Lolo. I love her more today than yesterday.  I pray that God touches her heart one day soon and that she will call me.  At least call her cousins. 

 

I HOPE" MATCHES" IS TAKEN CARE OF

I love this picture of these cute dogs.  The one on the right is named Boo.  I bet Jeannette would want to buy one of them if she were here.  She did have a dog named Matches.  Such a good dog that followed her around the house and layed down at her feet on the bed.  He loved Jeannette so much.  I think he must have know Jeannette was very sick because he just wanted to be around her and have her cuddle and pet him.  Wish I had a picture of Matches to post on here.  I wonder what became of him. Hopefully my grandsons are taking good care of Matches.  I know Jeannette would want that.

NOVEMBER 10, 2012 WAS A GOOD DAY

Time goes by so quickly and before we can imagine, our 45 year class reunion celebration was happening.  It was the class of 1967 High School class reunion.  I had not planned on attending since it was so close to Jeannette's birthday of November 5th but my daughter Diana told me that Jeannette would want me to enjoy the time spent with fellow classmates.  I couldn't have imagined having such an amazing time at the Tachi Casino in Lemoore, California, where it was held.  We had 80 classmates that attended.  I was so happy all night long having conversations and laughs with all my friends.  Some I had not seen in 45 years.  We are all senior citizens now but the young teenager inside us was still there having so much fun.  We danced to our 1960's music and even had a "soul train" dance contest.  Then we had a "Twist" contest.   Oh, my, what a beautiful time!!  It was a joyous event and I hope we have another one soon.  Wish I could have called Jeannette and told her all about the fun I had. 

My Beautiful Friends

 

Mary, Juanita, Me and Beatrice

Sharing a fun time with my friends at our 1967 Corcoran High class reunion.  We certainly know how to do it.  It was quite a success with several people attending the joyous event.  The food was delicious, the music good, but best of all the people.  We all shared warm hugs and took lots of pictures.  I talked to my closest friends about my dear Jeannette.  How I wish she were alive so I could have called her at 2:00 a.m. and tell her all about it. 
 

 

Dickie Valle, Jeannette's uncle, is in Heaven too

The year was 1967.  It was a year full of anxiety for me.  I was living a my mother's house and had given birth to my baby girl, Diana in January of that year.  Diana's dad was away in Vietnam in a place called Cam Ram Bay.  He would come home in April, 1968.  The man holding my baby girl is my beloved brother, Richard Valle.  He was in the Army and on a weekend pass.  He came by to say goodbye to all his family before being sent to Vietnam.  He was a Paratrooper in Vietnam.  Soon after returning from the jungles of Vietnam he married and was about to welcome the birth of his first child with his high school sweetheart when he was abruptly taken from us at Bass Lake, California.  He drowned on Memorial Day, 1970. 

Jeannette was born in 1971 and never had the chance to know her dearest uncle Dickie.  Now they are both in Heaven. 

SHE ASKED ME TO TAKE A PIC

 

The year was 1994.  I was at the Fresno Fair with Jeannette.  She wanted me to take a picture and so I did.  I found this pic right now inside one of my favorite books.  I was about to give it away and the picture fell out. 

 

Wish I could go back in time and be at the Fair again with Jeannette.  We had so much fun.

SHE MAKES US LAUGH

She has an infectious laugh that makes all of us start laughing. When Diana and Brenda get together you can bet there will be lots of laughs.  Looking forward to Thanksgiving.

love my sis

MY BEAUTIFUL SIS

She is a wonderful mother, sister, auntie, granny and daughter.  She cares about her father and helps to take care of his needs.  She spends as much time as she can with her grandchildren whom she adores. 

Look at those beautiful eyes.  She is beautiful inside and out. 

I love my sister, Brenda.  

Jeannette loved her too.

SHE LOVED FLOWERS

Beautiful flowers bring back memories of Jeannette.  I miss her so much. 
I am heading out the door to buy some flowers and arrange them on my new dining room table. 

Wish Jeannette were here to go have fun with me.  We loved shopping together and going out to eat.  I shall never forget all the fun times we shared. 

JEANNETTE WOULD BE PROUD

It was the "Pig Bowl" last Friday in Fresno, California.  Traditional football game dating back to 1930's when Roosevelt High played against Fresno High. 

Bianca is a senior now at Fresno High.  She is a cheerleader.  We all went to support the team and enjoy watching Bianca do her thing as a cheerleader.  It was also Senior Appreciation Day so during half time the seniors that were either in the football team or cheer team were acknowledged by the public and and appreciated.  Bianca had asked me and her sister, Ashlee to escort her.  Of coarse her brother, Christian tagged along.  He loves his big sisters.  Ashlee bought Bianca balloons and flowers and I and Christian and her mom gave her cards.  Her mother, Diana was in the crowed and screaming out her name, "Yeah Bianca."  Fresno High won the "PIG".

We are all proud of this beautiful young girl.  She is amazing and wonderful and she reminds me of Jeannette so much.  

I know if Jeannette were alive and well that she would have made sure to come to Fresno and be there for Bianca.  I bet she would have been sitting next to her sister, Diana and yelling out Bianca's name. 

How sad that Bianca's grandfather has no interest in his own children and his own grandchildren.  Instead spends his time and energy in Corcoran, California with his wife and her family getting drunk and belligerent and making fools of themselves.  The whole small town knows all about them.  How sad is that. 

MAMA, I DON'T WANT TO LEAVE MY BABIES

Jeannette was in pain and enduring all kinds of medical procedures but the only thing she had on her mind were her babies.  She loved them more than anything.  That is why she made sure to have them financially secure long after she left this earth.  Conner was her youngest and he clung to her at every chance.  Always crying and asking for something.  I think that as young as he was he knew something was not right with his mommy.  Shane was very emotional and always hugged and kissed his mommy.  Mathew was defiant and did not want to face the fact that his mom was dying so he was kind of hard for Jeannette to handle.  Loreal was closed off in her emotions.  No matter how much she was hurting inside she made sure to smile and put on a happy face around her mom.  Jeannette loved her children and there were times when she would break down and cry so much.  She told me she hated knowing that soon she would leave her babies. 

She is their Angel now.  I hope they are doing good and that they never forget their loving mom.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEANNETTE

YOU ARE IN HEAVEN AND I IMAGINE ANGELS CELEBRATING WITH YOU.  I MISS YOU  SO VERY MUCH.  YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART.  LUV  MOMMY

MI LINDA QUERIDA HIJA, ES TU CUMPLEANOS

 Jeannette has left a mark on this earth.  She left us with so many memories of her.  I remember when she was 16 years of age and wanted to spend her birthday in Disneyland.  I don't know how I did it but I managed to take her there along with her sister and brother.  We all enjoyed staying in a plush motel and eating breakfast out at Big Boy's.  I just remember all the laughter that my kids had all during the day.  Then I remember her last birthday in 2008.  It was cold and foggy and so we couldn't go down to see her but we all sent her cards and gifts.  I called her that day and she said she was glad we didn't go because there were lots of accidents on the grapevine heading to Los Angeles and she had feared we would get hurt.  That is the way Jeannette was.  She always worried about us.  She was amazing and loving and on this special day I am wearing her sweater, drinking out of her mug, having all her pictures in front of me, wearing her pink slippers as I walk around my house with a heavy heart listening to her Celine Dion songs that she loved.  Later today I am heading to Baskin Robbins and having a mint chip ice-cream cone that was her favorite.  Then over to her sister's house for a good home cooked meal she is preparing on this day.  We will all be there singing to her "Happy Birthday and eating her favorite cake. 

 

THANK YOU GOD FOR JEANNETTE

I imagine a big party going on in Heaven today.  It's Jeannette's Birthday. 

She is free from pain.  No more medications, etc.  She is in GLORY

Praise God.   Thank You God .

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY" MIJA, CELEBRAS CON DIOSITO

On this day of November 5, 2012, I am awake thinking of my Jeannette.  Today, she would have been 41 years of age.  She died three years ago leaving behind her three sons and one daughter.  During her battle with breast cancer she managed to get enough strength to do all the things that her children depended on her to do for them such as helping with their homework, having food for them to eat, picking them up and taking them to school until she couldn't drive.  They had a courageous and amazing mother.  I had a loving daughter who always worried about me even though she was in so much pain.  I remember her telling me she wouldn't live to celebrate her birthday with her babies and she was right. She died two months before.

I am sad and crying on this early Monday.  Woke up at 3:00 a.m. thinking of my beautiful Jeannette.  How I wish I could just have her come down from Heaven so I see her and hug her.  I would give anything to see her again. 

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEANNETTIE
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU.

I LOVE MY JEANNETTE AND I WILL NEVER FORGET HER.

NO NOT NEVER!!!!

ESTA SON LAS MANIANITAS DE TU CUMPLE ANOS Y  TE LAS CANTAMOS A TI

QUE ESTES CON DIOSITO MI QUERIDA LINDA HIJA.