ANOTHER MONTH WITHOUT MY NETTLE

Last day of September 2014.  Another month without Jeannette. 


Life is a self-fulfilling prophecy.  You may not get what you want, but in the long run you will get what you expect.


A good life is a collection of happy memories.  My mind is filled with so many beautiful memories of Jeannette. 


Happiness is the experience of living a life you feel is worthwhile.  Yes, it certainly is.  I have ten grandchildren that I love very much. 


Love yourself and give away, all the love you can today.  That is exactly what I do everyday.  My life is centered around my family. 


It is better to earn the trust and respect of one of your children, than to gain notoriety and adulation of the masses.  WISH IT WOULD SINK INTO HIM.

SHE LOVED HER CHILDREN

I remember many years ago when Jeannette lived in Fresno and had Loreal and Mathew.  One day I happened to be in her neighborhood and just popped in to visit and chat with her awhile.  She was busy caring for Mathew.  He had a slight cold at the time and nothing could sooth him more than his mother's arms.  She held him close to her as she talked to me.  Mathew was so adorable and more than anything, I wanted to hold him in my arms.  He would not have it.  He loved his mommy and didn't want to let go of her. 


This is such a great memory of my beloved daughter.  She loved her children so much.

SOMEDAY

Sin has many tools, but a lie is the handle that fits them all.- Denis Waitley




Monday morning and up early taking my grandchild to school.  He is a fine young boy of eight.  An obedient, curious, lovable child of God.  He has only one grandmother which is me and a great grandpa who lives in Corcoran, California.  However, he does have a grandpa that lives only 5 miles from him but has never had a relationship with him.  The grandpa chooses to live his life gambling and partying.  He is almost 70 years of age and has not once stopped to reflect on his life and see all the sins he has committed in this world. 


Fortunate to have children that are the complete opposite of their father.  Jeannette was loving and kind and nurturing to her children.  All four of them.  She worried so much about their future.


Thanks to God for Jeannette, Daniel and Diana that they have a loving heart and not self centered and sinful. 

MY DAUGHTER

  Sending millions of hugs and kisses to Heaven. That is where my beloved daughter is. 


Missing my Nettle Poodle.

FIVE YEARS AGO TODAY

On this day five years ago my beloved daughter lost her battle with breast cancer.  She left us all with such beautiful memories of her.  She had such a sweet sounding voice that always had something positive to say even in the most stressful times.  Her big brown eyes caught the attention of so many people and even during her last hard fought battle in August of 2009 they remained so beautiful.  Big and bright. 


Her children were the most important in her life and that is why after grueling radiation treatments she would come home and make them a big dinner, help them with homework or just sit and listen to them as they discussed their days events at school.  She worried about Loreal and who would be buying her school clothes after she died.  Also her oldest son Mathew who was rebellious at times and just couldn't cope with his mom being sick.  Shane was emotional when he would sit next to his mommy and Jeannette made sure to comfort him.  Conner, the youngest was not old enough to understand what was really going on but all he knew was that he wanted to be with his mommy. 


I miss Jeannette so very much.  Time has gone by too fast and it feels to me like it was just yesterday that she died.  I cope by writing about her on this blog.  It actually has saved me from really going into deep grief. 


Free from pain, my baby.  Free at LAST!!!!