1969: My baby girl Diana. We have had an amazing relationship from the day she was born which was January 25, 1967 to today.
Today, she celebrates her 48th birthday with all our family. She was all I had to love me back when she was born. Her father was in Vietnam and had absolutely no relationship with her from the day she was born to now. When he came back from Vietnam he stepped off the bus in Tulare, California after being away for a year. There I was so eager to see him as I held our baby in my arms. He gave me a pat on the shoulder and didn't even attempt to at least hug me, kiss me and his baby. That is what I got from Vietnam. A heartless, loveless, self centered and "mean" man. I was so young and so eager to please him because I was so in love with him. It took me 17 years to figure out he not only didn't love me, he also didn't love being a father to his own children.
Diana grew up knowing she couldn't sit on daddy's lap and hug him and instead hiding under the bed when he arrived from home. No telling how mad he was going to be when he walked into the house.
Diana had three beautiful children and they too do not have a relationship with their grandpa. He only lives less than five miles from them.
On this special day I will be there for my Diana just like I have been all my life. She will feel the love from all of us.
Happy Birthday to my awesome first baby. Diana Lynn Rocha. May God continue to bless her and keep her safe.
I KNOW JEANNETTE IS HER ANGEL IN HEAVEN
When you go, if you go, and should want to die, there's nothing I'd be saved by more than the time you fell asleep in my arms in a trust so gentle
Lately doing part time work interpreting all around Fresno, California. My assignments take me to all parts of this town that I live in. My days are not so filled with grief over my precious daughter's untimely death and instead my mind is occupied with vocabulary words, medical terminology, etc. It is a good thing to use whatever tool is available to help with my grief. It means I get up extra early, get ready for the days assignments. 
Had an amazing and wonderful birthday on January 9th. It certainly was a day to remember. My son took me out to a wonderful lunch and as always, we had plenty of laughs. Came home to a pink birthday cake sitting on the dining table. It was homemade by my granddaughter, Bianca. My best friend Annie, baked me a cherry cake too. Later that night our whole family met at Yoshinos for dinner. I am truly blessed to have had such fun. The only thing missing that would totally complete my happiness is Jeannette. She is missed so very much. 
Wednesday, January 7, 2015. Here I am in my bedroom and at my desk thinking about Jeannette. It is 2015 and already close to 6 years that she died and went to Heaven. Not a day goes by that I do not think of her. She left this earth with so many memories. She was an amazing woman who adored her four children. Her life was centered around them. 
