GOODBYE 2016

She lived a happy life for the most part.  Here she is up at the snow having fun.  I think it must have been 2007.  She had four beautiful children but left them forever in 2009.  She never had a chance to see them grow.  The oldest one at the time was 16.  She never had a chance due to breast cancer that took her from all of us.  She was in so much pain during all her chemo and radiation treatments.  No medication could take away the pain.  I cried out for help during her last stay at the hospital.  The nurses told me it wasn't time for her next dosage.  The doctor finally came to her bedside and ordered more pain meds.  She slept for a little but as soon as she was awake it was pain all over again. Can you imagine it.  Hearing her cry to me was heart breaking. 

Now, heading into 2017 and I thank God for all my blessings of 2016.  He blessed me with a great grandbaby in June, 2016.  He is adorable and I love him so much.  In November, my dear daddy lost his kidneys to failure and now undergoes dialysis three times per week.  Please pray for him.  On the first week of January, 2017 he will have surgery so needless to say, I am worried. 

In May of 2017, my granddaughter, Bianca will graduate from Fresno State University and then onto Graduate school.  I am very proud of her.  She was brought up in a single parent home and almost on the poverty level but I was always there helping out as much as I could.  She soared above all the classmates in grammar school and in high school.  She listened to my advice and is now about to reach her goals in life.  She holds down three jobs and teaches a Zumba class on weekends.  All this while going to school full time. 

As I reflect on 2016 I am grateful for all my blessings.  Yes, there were some tough times especially when my dad fell ill and was hospitalized and also when my washing machine broke and I had to buy a another one.  The good times out weigh the bad times.  Life goes on.  Another year gone without my beloved Jeannette.  I sure miss her phone calls and all the hugs and fun times we shared. 

Happy New Year to all my fans reading my posts.  God Bless.

CHRISTMAS TIME 2016

It has been over 7 years that my beloved Jeannette went to Heaven.  She is always on my mind especially during this holiday time.  Remembering how much she loved decorating her home and making a warm and cozy home for her family that she loved so very much.

Right in the middle of my shopping I notice young mothers with their children making their way to the toy sections of the stores.  I imagine Jeannette doing same thing.  She adored her four children and always made sure Santa brought them what they requested.  It is sad for me at times witnessing all the laughter and glee of families in the stores.  Sometimes I sit in my car in the parking lot drinking my coffee and listening the music and if I am lucky a song will come out that Jeannette loved. 

My current focus in life is my father.  He has really taken a turn for the worse.  His kidneys shut down and now he is on dialysis.  It is taking a toll on his health.  He has no energy.  I went to visit him on Tuesday and found him sitting on his favorite chair covered in warm blanket.  He asked me who I was.  I said, "It's me, daddy."  As I got closer to him he recognized me and was so happy.  My sister and my nephew take good care of him otherwise he would have to be in an assisted living facility.  I am grateful to them for taking on 24/7 responsibility in taking care of him. 

I became a great grandmother in June of this year.  What a blessing to be a great grandmother.  Noah is adorable and such a good baby. 

My granddaughter is about to finish Fresno State University and going on to Graduate School.  I am so proud of her.  Can't wait to celebrate with her.  I know if Jeannette were alive she would be so proud of her too. 

This year has been a blessing to me.  I thank God for waking up everyday  and being able to spread his love.  God is Love. 

Jeannette is missed so much.  Not one day goes by that I do not think of her.  Right now wearing her pink robe and slippers as I  type this post.   Her picture is close by.  I am sure she approves of this post.