SO GRATEFUL

I AM GRATEFUL FOR SO MANY THINGS.

I THINK OF JEANNETTE AND I AM GRATEFUL TO HAVE HAD HER AS MY BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIANCA

She is 19 years of age today.  A smart, loving and so sweet granddaughter.  She told me today she wished that her auntie was here to help celebrate her birthday. 

A MESSAGE TO A CERTAIN PERSON

This message is directed at a person in Fresno.  He knows who he is.  I know he reads my blog everyday. 

Wake up and head out of the darkness.  Before it's too late. 

MISSING HER

I miss Jeannette more than anything in this world.  Memories are all I have left of her but there are so many many of them.  I use this blog for therapy.  Sometimes you will notice I skip several days before I enter a new post and that is because my life is full and I have wonderful family and friends that help me by either taking me places or visiting or just hanging out.  Sometimes I babysit my beautiful granddaughter or grandsons and sometimes I spend the day taking long walks.  The weather was cold this morning but I still went out for a brisk walk around the area where I live. 

I wish Jeannette was here to walk with me.  I imagine walking and laughing with her. 

 

A PLEASANT SURPRISE TONIGHT

I arrived home a few minutes ago and as I was about to put my coat back into the closet a small box fell from the top shelf.  I opened it and inside was a card from Jeannette. 

The card was sent to me back on Mother's Day of 2008 and the day I received it was the same day she came to visit me alone from her home in Thousand Oaks, Ca. 

She is my angel in Heaven and I believe with all my heart she wanted me to read the card again.

Missing her everyday.

A PIECE OF MY HEART

 

SHE GAVE ME THE BEST HUG

A new month and the last one of the year 2013.  Jeannette left us in 2009.  It has been a difficult 4 years for me.  There have been some good times but even then I still think of Jeannette and how she could have been here with me enjoying them if it wasn't for breast cancer taking over her entire body. 

 

As I sit here in front of my PC typing away I have memories of Jeannette visiting me long ago when I worked at a school in Fresno.  She came by unexpectedly. The security man at the front gate of the school called and said a young lady was at the gate asking for me.  I thought for a moment that it was my granddaughter but when I walked outside of my office and down the path to the front gate I noticed a hunter green SUV parked at the gate.  I recognized it as Jeannette's and so I waved to her as I was getting closer to her.  She and I hugged each other and the best memory of that encounter was the fact that after I had finished hugging her she pulled me in closer and re-hugged me again.  That alone has got to be the best feeling in the world.