PROUD OF HER

Everytime I see this picture of her I begin to cry.  Tears of grief, tears of how proud I was of her in the military and  HAPPY tears knowing that one day I will see her again.


Thinking of her today as I go about my day.  Driving down Blackstone or heading up the coast in Atascadero  or down south to Corcoran, wishing she was in the car with me laughing like she used to do. 


She is my beloved Nettle Poodle.  My baby girl. 

BEGINNING OF THE BATTLE

I love this pic of her.  She looks so beautiful on that day in 2008.  It was the beginning of her battle with breast cancer.  On that particular day she was waiting for the nurse to call her name and go into short stay surgery to place a portal inside her upper chest so that the chemo meds.  She said to me that when it was over that she wanted to go eat a pizza at Me-n-Eds.  She was optimistic and was in such a positive mood that morning.  I smiled but inside of me I was nervous and tears wanted to burst out of my eyes but I held it all in for her sake.  As you all know by now, she passed away on September,3,2009.  I miss her so damn much.  Every night I pray that I will dream of her. 

SHE LOVED HER CHILDREN

 

She called me one particular day  in 2009 from her home in Thousand Oaks, California.  She was alone in her home and sitting on her couch as her dog, Matches and her cute white kitty cats sat at her feet.  Her children were in school and she just wanted to drink coffee and chit chat with me.  We had a very long conversation about anything and everything she wanted to get off her mind.  I remember we talked about her daughter, LoLo.  Jeannette loved her so much and worried about her not having her mom to help her pick out her school clothes or makes sure she kept her dental appointments, etc.  I reassured her that LoLo would be well taken care of. 

Jeannette loved her children.

 

SHE IS IN HEAVEN

LOVING MY DAUGHTER

Thinking of her early this morning.  Her purse is hanging on a hook on my closet door and that is the first thing my eyes saw when I opened them.  Jeannette's life was a Blessing, her memory a treasure.  She is loved beyond words and missed beyond measure.  If I could see her one more day, I would hug her so tight and tell her all about the family.  She would be so proud of her nephews and nieces just as I am. 

 

Jeannette is in Heaven

Monday morning and oh what a beautiful one it is.  Positive energy all around me.  My daughter brought me breakfast in bed and also surprised me with pan dulce(Mexican sweet bread) from my favorite bakery located on Fruit and Shields.  The Mi Ranchito bakery.  It's always packed early in the morning with people buying up delicious sweet stuff.


Living a good life with my family and loving God.  All my days are filled with love. 


Look! I am coming quickly, and My reward is with Me to repay each person according to what he has done.


-Revelation 22:12