A WONDERFUL MOMMY TO HER CHILDREN

She was so full of life.  A day in the life of Jeannette was like no other.  She multi tasked quite a bit.  It was as if she was in a hurry to get things done before she went to Heaven.  During one day back in 2008, I was at her home and helping her in whatever she needed.  Her pain was constant as she went about her days.  During one particular time she requested albums from Costco saying she wanted to organize each of her children's important things in each.  Things like birth certificates, health records, pictures, etc.  By the end of the day we were all helping her organize.  When it was all done and tucked away in a safe place she was happy.  What a loving and wonderful mommy she was to her children. 

Jeannette lived for 13, 813 days

37 years

9 months

25 days

Missing her more today than yesterday.  My beautiful daughter is gone but her memories live on. 

I love Her

It feels so good to be able to write about my beloved Jeannette once again.  She is my angel in heaven now and at times I feel her near me.  I do talk to her and even though she does not answer me in the flesh I can hear her in my thoughts.  Just the other day as I was about to leave on a trip to see my granddaughter I had a feeling that I should take the rocking chair that Jeannette had used to rock her babies.  After a short struggle I managed to fit it in the trunk of my car.  My granddaughter was very excited to have it for her baby.  She had Noah in late June.  My first great grandbaby.  Such an adorable baby.  When I held him I thought about Jeannette how I know she would have been with her niece to comfort her and help her if she were alive.  That is the kind of person Jeannette was.  A loving, kind and compassionate person.  I really miss her so much. 

CUPCAKES AND COCOA

I found this on the internet and I have to admit it sure made me go back in time.  Jeannette looked just like this when she was a little girl.  She would sit at the dinner table and draw hearts.  One day she drew a pretty pink one and gave it to me.  After about a minute she came back to where I was and asked me if I would join her in eating a chocolate cupcake and hot cocoa.  I told her we didn't have any chocolate cupcakes in the pantry and for sure we did not have cocoa.  She looked at me with her big brown eyes and said to me, "Mommy, we can go to Bobs Big Boy.''  I hesitated but of coarse I said yes and as we drove to Bobs Big Boy she asked me one favor.  She asked if we could bring back cupcakes for her brother and sister.  I said o.k.  and so we stopped at Savemart grocery store after and I bought a few items I needed and yes, I bought a box of cupcakes and cocoa.  She was the cutest and smartest and most loving little girl in the world.  I thank God for blessing me with her even if it was for a short time.  Those were the best years of my life.  Being her "Mommy." 

PROUD OF HER

Everytime I see this picture of her I begin to cry.  Tears of grief, tears of how proud I was of her in the military and  HAPPY tears knowing that one day I will see her again.


Thinking of her today as I go about my day.  Driving down Blackstone or heading up the coast in Atascadero  or down south to Corcoran, wishing she was in the car with me laughing like she used to do. 


She is my beloved Nettle Poodle.  My baby girl. 

BEGINNING OF THE BATTLE

I love this pic of her.  She looks so beautiful on that day in 2008.  It was the beginning of her battle with breast cancer.  On that particular day she was waiting for the nurse to call her name and go into short stay surgery to place a portal inside her upper chest so that the chemo meds.  She said to me that when it was over that she wanted to go eat a pizza at Me-n-Eds.  She was optimistic and was in such a positive mood that morning.  I smiled but inside of me I was nervous and tears wanted to burst out of my eyes but I held it all in for her sake.  As you all know by now, she passed away on September,3,2009.  I miss her so damn much.  Every night I pray that I will dream of her. 

SHE LOVED HER CHILDREN

 

She called me one particular day  in 2009 from her home in Thousand Oaks, California.  She was alone in her home and sitting on her couch as her dog, Matches and her cute white kitty cats sat at her feet.  Her children were in school and she just wanted to drink coffee and chit chat with me.  We had a very long conversation about anything and everything she wanted to get off her mind.  I remember we talked about her daughter, LoLo.  Jeannette loved her so much and worried about her not having her mom to help her pick out her school clothes or makes sure she kept her dental appointments, etc.  I reassured her that LoLo would be well taken care of. 

Jeannette loved her children.