SHE NEVER GOT A CHANCE

No more children running around asking mommy to play "Patty Cakes" with them
No more young teens blaring their music all thru the house
No more sink full of dishes to wash
No more cooking for a family six but in reality having a family of four
No more shopping for a full trunk full of food
No more loud laughter
No more hearing Jeannette screaming to get her the hairspray from the second bathroom
No more running late as I drove them to school
No more explaining to my boss that I missed work due my little girl had a stomach ache
No more yelling at Diana to get off the phone because it was already 1:00 in the morning

I could go on and on.  The thing is that they all grew up.  Two are growing older each year.  One never got a chance to grow into middle age.  Never got a chance to see her four beautiful children grow up.  She is gone now.  My beloved Jeannette.   I miss her.

A GOOD MEMORY OF HER

Another foggy morning in Fresno, California.  I cancelled my on going doctor appointment for my wrist injury today.  Didn't want to leave my house and just want to stay indoors and not have to go out in the cold and fight traffic.  I love cleaning my home while listening to music.  I played one of Jeannette's favorite songs on Celine Dion CD.   As I moved from room to room cleaning and straightening out my things a long tear ran down to my cheek.  I finally had to stop and sit down on my new comfy chair and sip on some good coffee.  Thoughts of Jeannette raced in my mind.  Memories of long ago when she was only 15 years of age.  She was a helper around the house.   Carpets were freshly vacumned everyday, dishes washed and bathrooms were scrubbed.  She did it all while I was at work.  I remember opening the front door and the aroma of vanilla penetrating my nostrils.  I would always ask her where is that smell coming from and she would smile and say she had a candle on in the living room.  Not only did she clean house, she also cooked some pasta or whatever was available and something she especially knew how to cook.   Then as I walked up the stairs to relax in my bedroom she would ask me if she could have one of her friends come over and of coarse I would say yes.  We had a very loving relationship during those formative years in her life. 

It's a good memory. 

SHE LOVED THIS FOR LUNCH

I finished making this for lunch right now and how I wish Jeannette could be here to enjoy it with me.  This was one of her favorites.  I remember how she loved garlic bread and a green salad with it too.   As I sit here with the dish in front of me I imagine my Jeannette getting seconds of it.

 

I have so much to be thankful for

Jeannette, Diana and Me, 2008

Thank You Jeannette for all the love you gave to me especially during your final year on earth. 
Thank You Diana for not only being a loving daughter but also my very best friend.
Thank You Daniel for you are not only a good son of mine but an awesome father to your three children and a loving husband to your wife.
Thank You Ashlee for being the best granddaughter and being a hard and smart worker.
Thank You Bianca for never talking back to me and being a good loving grandchild
Thank You Christian for always making my days brighter when I start to feel sad over loosing your auntie
Thank You Jacob and Nicholas and Melanie for being good grandchildren that love me so much.
Thank You Dad for taking good care of yourself so that I won't worry so much over you.
Thank You Brenda, Ron, Ben, Sam, Donna for doing all that you can for Dad.
Thank YOu to all my fans,  friends and loved ones that follow my blog and may you all have a Happy Thanksgiving.


Most of all, I want to thank God for giving one more day to spread his love.  I cherish everyday he gives to me.  My prayers go out to my other grandchildren named Loreal, Mathew, Shane and Conner that they are happy and healthy and especially never forget their mommy that loved them so very much.  I love you all and miss you. 

WE ALL MISS LOLO

ASHLEE' BIRTHDAY APRIL , 2010.  LOOK HOW HAPPY LOLO WAS BACK THEN WITH HER COUSIN. 

BE HAPPY

I have decided to be Happy tomorrow while I enjoy time spent with my daughter, Diana and grandchildren.  I know Jeannette would want that for me. 

JEANNETTE WILL NEVER NOT NEVER BE FORGOTTEN

As I live out my life here in Fresno, California I know that I will never have complete happiness.  No matter what happens in my life, Jeannette is not here to share it with me.  I miss her so very much.