Here we are hanging out on a November night. She and I had gone out to dinner that night. Sometimes I have to just convince myself to go out and have fun instead of being sad about everything that has happened in my life. They say time has a way of healing our sadness. It's been two years and I still can hear Jeannette's voice calling out to me saying, "Mama, please help me." I am dealing with so many emotions at this time. My Bianca makes me forget for a moment that life goes on. I focus on her and make her happy. We walked into a store and she ran straight to the shoe section. She began to make comments about how nice they were and tried on a few of the boots. I was glancing around and looking at sweaters and tops. Bianca went over to me and said, " Grandma, can you please buy me those boots." I asked her how much. She smiled at me and said $25.00. I told her I would think about it. As I made my way around the store I looked at her standing by the check out counter hoping that I would come and buy the boots. I walked over to her and said, "O.K. baby, just because you are a good girl, get good grades and help your mama." She hugged me and kissed me on the cheek. It brought back memories of Jeannette as a teenager. She and I loved shopping. I remember all those silly faces she would make and how she would kiss me and hug me real tight when I bought her anything.
I miss my Nettle Poodle.
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