I am awake at 3:00 a.m. this 9th day of January, 2013. It happens to be my birthday and I had to get out of bed because I just could not sleep any longer. I had a dream about Jeannette that is still so vivid in my mind. What a wonderful time I had in that dream. Jeannette and I were together at the Cherry Auction swap meet in Fresno. We were selling all kinds of things and people were actually buying stuff that I was going to throw away. Things like old shoes, sweaters, etc. We had so much fun together doing that. I do not know what the dream means but I am just happy I had that dream . It make this day so very special to me.
God has given me 64 years of life. As I look back and remember all the birthdays of my past I realize I cherish most the ones with all my loved ones around me singing me Happy Birthday.
When I was a little girl and I think about 5 years of age I wanted a birthday party so much because I had witnessed another little girl named Betty Leon have a big birthday party and I wanted one just like hers. I begged my mom for one but she said there was no money for a party. I was mad because I wanted to have attention and be special on that day. Then my grandmother all of a sudden brought over a big bag with a cake and two big bottles of 7-up. I was so happy. It was me, my brothers Manuel, Benny and Ron enjoying a big piece of coconut cake and soda. It didn't matter that I didn't have a big party. I was just happy to have the most loving grandmother in the world. I guess that is why now I make a big fuss over my children and grandchildren's birthdays. I am just like my beloved grandmother.
Jeannette called me on my birthday on January 9, 2009. I remember hearing her sweet voice telling me she was thinking of me and wished me a Happy Birthday. She had been in so much pain and was barely going to sleep but wanted to be sure and let me know she didn't forget my birthday. She asked me for my account number to my car and the phone number of the financial company I paid my loan to. I asked her why. She said because she wanted to pay my car payment as a birthday gift to me because she could not shop due to pain and could not give me a gift. I cried and told her she didn't have to do that. She insisted. That's the kind of person Jeannette was. So kind, so thoughtful and with such a big heart.
My car is paid off now and if she were here she wouldn't have to do that for me. If she were here we would be together today. I would make sure of that. Gosh, I am crying right now just thinking about her and knowing that today, no matter what takes place she will not be here with me. It hurts. Three years have passed and it still hurts. I miss my Nettle Poodle so much.
I am just happy I dreamed of her last night. That is the best gift I could ever ask for today, on my birthday.
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