Today is one of the hottest days and my AC broke down last night. It will not get fixed until Monday. What to do. Panic, cry and be mad, frustrated, etc. NO, I choose not to. I choose to be happy and deal with it. Nothing can get to me anymore. Ever since I lost Jeannette. Loosing her is the most devastating thing that could ever happen. My days were full of sadness and grief back in 2009. Now, in 2013, this blog has helped me so much. Just remembering all the things about Jeannette and posting gives me comfort. As I sit here right now with three fans blowing on my face, I remember the times back in the day when I could not pay my PGE and it was turned off. Jeannette must have been around 12 years old. It was winter time. She brought home candles and covered me with blankets on the couch as I lay there in despair. She always seemed to handle the most unfortunate situations in my life. I miss her so much especially today. I know she would be making cold drinks and probably would have stopped at the local 99cent store and bought a small plastic pool to put the kids in while we chatted. Jeannette was amazing and brave. During her last days she fought with all her might. The hospital AC was not working and I made sure to have the nurse put fans all around her. I cooled her down with fresh cool towels. She needed me to do the things she did for me when she was just a little girl.
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