A ROSE FOR MY JEANNETTE

My weekend without my Jeannette on this beautiful day.  A day that I wish I could be spending with her.  She and I would probably be out shopping and just enjoying each others company.  She also loved going to movies with me.  One of the most memorable times at the movies is when we went to see The Titanic.  We both walked out wiping our eyes.  It was a powerful emotional movie.  The kind we both enjoyed watching. 

As I sit her alone in my office I have the most amazing beautiful woman's picture in front of me.  It is the picture of my Jeannette.  Smiling at me. 

SHE WAS A MOTHER OF FOUR

Jeannette left behind four beautiful children that she loved.  She was the most loving mother to all of them.  I hope and pray they never forget their mommy. 

PRAYING FOR MY SIS AND SIRJO

It was his beautiful mommy he wanted to be with.  The time was long ago.  The feeling is still there.  He wants his mom.  He realizes there is no love stronger than his mom.  His mom has him embedded in her heart. It is he who she thinks about day and night.  It is he who keeps her awake late at night tossing and turning in bed due to anxiety.  She misses him. 

 My nephew Sirjo and Jeannette's cousin is going through trials and tribulations at this point in time.  He has time to reflect back on his life and came to the conclusion that his mom is truly a loving and caring mom.

I knew that all along about my sister, Brenda.  She is 12 years younger than I.  On the day she was born I became the happiest little girl on earth.  I had my very own baby sister.  All my life I have kept in touch with her even during my difficult times especially during Jeannette's illness.  My sister has a warm and giving heart.

She has and always will have her sons first and foremost in her life.  Especially now with Sirjo.  She has a heavy heart but has an abundance faith in God to see her thru and to comfort him during this difficult time in his life. 

I know God hears my prayers for my sister and Sirjo. 

THOUGHTS OF MY JEANNETTE

Jeannette was a princess.  As a child, she dreamed fairytales.  Her bright pink room and love of all things "princess" made her family chuckle, but it was so Jeannette.  She was her grama's princess, her mommy's princess, everyone's princess.

When her aunt bought her a wedding dress when she was 8 for a Halloween costume, she couldn't wait to get into it.  She bobbed for apples in that princess dress on a street called Emerson at a neighbor's party.  If she could have, she probably would have tended to the household chores in that dress.

But Jeannette was so much more.

"Jeannette believed in everybody, and she always believed she could change your life," says her sister, Diana.  "Everyone who met her was changed by her.

Her naturally thick dark black hair was usually kept long and straight.  It was her big brown eyes and that smile that was bigger than life.  Photographs of Jeannette portray a spirited youngster, with brilliant smile and keen outlook.  She wasn't the least bit camera-shy.  There was nothing Jeannette couldn't do. 

On this beautiful Friday morning in Fresno, California thoughts of my Jeannette as a little girl are with me.  She certainly was my princess.  Always.

PRAYERS FOR MY NEPHEW

This is a picture of my nephew, Sirjo and his gorgeous girlfriend Rhiannon  taken not too long ago.  Such a loving and happy couple.  They have three adorable children.  Sirjo's world turned upside down in an instant.  He has so very many friends and family members who love him and keep him in prayer. 

When things are going good in life and a person feels on top of the world is when it happens.  A boatload of problems hit you.  It really makes a person understand what they are made of in dealing with the issues at hand.  My life had been a road of ups and downs but I realize I am optimistic and I rarely tend to focus on the negativity and instead think positive thoughts.

  Eventually, all the drama passes and is done with.  Except for one thing in my life.  My precious daughter's death.  I do not think I can get over it. 

My advice to my sister Brenda is too think positive. Sirjo is in God's hands.  Trust in the Lord.

I SO LOOK FORWARD TO THAT DAY

On this beautiful Wednesday morning in Fresno, California I think of all beautiful things and immediately my thoughts are of my beloved Jeannette.  She had a kind heart and a good soul.  Loved her family so very much.  Never one to be weak minded, she knew when to say "Stop" to her father when he would begin to try and brain wash her against me and against her very own family on my side.  I am proud my mija loved me so very much and would call me to tell me how she stood up to her father and his evil ways.  Now that she is gone, he has managed to corrupt Jeannette's daughter.  She has fallen victim to her grandfather's evilness.  All we can do is pray. Pray that she somehow breaks away and back to us.  We love her so very much.  Karma will get her grandpa in the end.  I look forward to that day. 

They have not forgotten Her

Good to know that above all else they have not forgotten their dear mommy. 

LOLO IS ALL GROWN NOW.

She is all grown up now.  Loreal is such a beauty just like her mommy was at her age. 

JEANNETTE AND AUDREY

This reminds me of Jeannette.   I smile. 

11/05/1971 to 09/03/2009

Four years ago today my beautiful daughter lost her battle with breast cancer.  She died in Ventura, California at the Community Memorial Hospital.  At exactly 3:35 p.m. in room 615,  her heart stopped.  At that moment in time my heart almost stopped too. 

Jeannette had a natural magnetism and pure truth to her spirit that drew others to her.  She was such a warm, loving, caring and giving young woman.  She always had that same twinkle in her eye that just fixated us to her.  She had the values that we want all our kids to have.  There was something about Jeannette's smile, when she'd look at you with those big brown eyes that just warmed your heart. 

She proudly served our country.  Was an amazing mother of four. 

Jeannette will forever live on in my heart.  RIP my beautiful Nettle Poodle.