August of 2009 was a very bad month for Jeannette. Her breast cancer advanced into her spine and she experienced the worst kind of pain any human being can endure.
Today, as I sit here in my office and at my desk I try and write something positive in this blog to make me feel better. I have been in bed for three days now. Just getting up to eat or use bathroom. I have not been answering phone calls or text messages. I know it is not good for me to be this way. This morning I put on my tennis shoes, shorts and top and went out for a walk. As I walked passing homes along the neighborhood I shed a few tears. Walking helped me to get out of this depressive feelings. I walked for almost two miles gathering my thoughts and trying to think positive. I guess it really helped because now I am up and writing again about her. I have energy that had left me three days ago. I am determined to keep positive about my life now. Jeannette is in Heaven and in no pain.
Tomorrow is another day. It will be a happy day due to my grandson's birthday. He will be 8 years of age. He loves playing games on his electronic gadgets, my phone and his sister's phones. Sometimes when I see him smiling at me I see Jeannette. She had a sweet smile. He hugs me hard like Jeannette did. My grandchildren are what makes me so happy and glad to be alive.
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