This first week of November, 2014 has been an emotional time for me. Jeannette's birthday was November 5th. Scattered all over my bed were pictures of her. Moments back in time of her as a baby and all the way to her end of life. I picked up each picture and my mind took me back from 1971 to 2014.
She would be 43 years now if Breast Cancer would not have taken her from us. It was so very sad to see her in such horrific pain for over a year trying to win her battle. What a warrior she became. She would set aside her pain and focus on her children by helping them with homework, etc. I was there in her home witnessing what an awesome mommy she was to her four children.
We all went to visit her gravesite on her birthday. Her brother, sister, nieces, nephews, grandfather, aunties and uncles. Each and everyone of us had special moments with her. I was emotional and felt awful walking away back to my car leaving her there. It felt like I was abandoning her and it made me sad.
Jeannette lives on in spirit. I am currently wearing her pink robe and slippers as I write this post. I am also drinking from her coffee cup that says, "Breast Cancer Awareness." It calms me somewhat when I have something of her. The robe feels like she is hugging me. Her slippers feel like she is soothing my feet and her coffee cup feels like she is nourishing me. Such love coming from her things that I cherish with all my heart.
I love my daughter more than anything in this world.
She would be 43 years now if Breast Cancer would not have taken her from us. It was so very sad to see her in such horrific pain for over a year trying to win her battle. What a warrior she became. She would set aside her pain and focus on her children by helping them with homework, etc. I was there in her home witnessing what an awesome mommy she was to her four children.
We all went to visit her gravesite on her birthday. Her brother, sister, nieces, nephews, grandfather, aunties and uncles. Each and everyone of us had special moments with her. I was emotional and felt awful walking away back to my car leaving her there. It felt like I was abandoning her and it made me sad.
Jeannette lives on in spirit. I am currently wearing her pink robe and slippers as I write this post. I am also drinking from her coffee cup that says, "Breast Cancer Awareness." It calms me somewhat when I have something of her. The robe feels like she is hugging me. Her slippers feel like she is soothing my feet and her coffee cup feels like she is nourishing me. Such love coming from her things that I cherish with all my heart.
I love my daughter more than anything in this world.
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