Well, here I am on this 12th day of January, 2017. Just finished celebrating my birthday on the 9th. After all was done on my special day, I went to bed feeling sad. The feeling that is with me every single day of my life after my beloved Jeannette died. My heart aches for her. I do thank God for all my blessings. Having my children and grandchildren here with me and now my great grandson, Noah too. If I could have had my birthday wish come true, Jeannette would be here with me right now.
My dear dad is very sick and on Dialysis. He is 89 years old. If I could, I would take him on a very nice vacation but at this time he has to go to dialysis three times per week. He mentioned to me that when he gets tired of going to treatments that he will let me know to stop and that he is anxious to meet up with my mom in Heaven. It's his decision. Jeannette never had that opportunity to make her final decisions about her life. She was put into medically induced coma and given very strong pain medications to make her heart stop. It was unfair and unjust. I had no input into anything because her husband was in charge. I wonder how he lives with himself knowing what he demanded from the doctors. He was overheard on the phone call to his mother that he was so done with Jeannette's constant doctor visits, chemotherapy and radiation therapy appointments even though we all know he seldom accompanied her to them.
As you can tell by this post, I still feel anger inside me regarding my beloved daughter's life.
My dear dad is very sick and on Dialysis. He is 89 years old. If I could, I would take him on a very nice vacation but at this time he has to go to dialysis three times per week. He mentioned to me that when he gets tired of going to treatments that he will let me know to stop and that he is anxious to meet up with my mom in Heaven. It's his decision. Jeannette never had that opportunity to make her final decisions about her life. She was put into medically induced coma and given very strong pain medications to make her heart stop. It was unfair and unjust. I had no input into anything because her husband was in charge. I wonder how he lives with himself knowing what he demanded from the doctors. He was overheard on the phone call to his mother that he was so done with Jeannette's constant doctor visits, chemotherapy and radiation therapy appointments even though we all know he seldom accompanied her to them.
As you can tell by this post, I still feel anger inside me regarding my beloved daughter's life.
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