TO HER VERY LAST SECOND, SHE WAS SO BEAUTIFUL

With her body aching in pain and no relief in sight.   With her favorite wig and headband on, she was determined to take this picture by a professional photographer on that spring day in 2009.  She had been told by her doctor that her time was short and so she was making memories as much as she could.  She told me, "Ma, I want my children to remember me."  Then she said, "Ma, do you think they will."  I reassured her that her children would always remember her because she was a good mom and cared for them. 

Nothing, not even the damn breast cancer could make my Jeannette look ugly.  Her beauty withstood all the damage that cancer brought on.  Her eyebrows all fell out, her eyelashes, her hair but her pretty face still came shining through.  I helped her paint on eyebrows, and put eye shadow on her pretty eyes.  She looked beautiful.

On her last day on this earth and while in sedation, I looked at her with a million tears falling down my cheeks.  As I stood there shaking as her heart began to stop beating, I looked at my baby.  She still looked amazingly beautiful and almost Angel like. 

I miss her so much.  I will never ever get over my dear daughter's death.  NO, not never!