ANOTHER MONTH WITHOUT HER

Wednesday morning and last day of February, 2012.  Another month without my daughter calling me, visiting me, sending me letters, texting me or e-mailing me saying to me that she misses me and wants me to go visit her.  I am a changed woman.  My life has never been the same since she died.  My beautiful daughter's heart stopped beating right in front of me.  I had a feeling that September 3, 2009 would be her last day on earth.  I was right there sitting next to her bed.  That morning I talked to her even though she was sedated.  I told her she was going to see Jesus Christ and she would be free from pain.  I talked to her all day with millions of tears flowing down my face.  I knew in my heart I would loose her that day. 

I am here missing my baby. 
Well, better get ready to leave for work again.
I have to take the profound saddness I feel now and put it on back burner.  People are waiting for me to help them.  I have to smile.  O.K.  here I go.