Going to Heaven

She came to Fresno during one of her good days and insisted on going to my home town to see grandma and grandpa and to visit their church.  She wanted the congregation to pray for her and she wanted to do the sinners prayer.  She asked me if i thought she would go to heaven. I said yes.  She said, "Mom, I won't know anybody there and I wish grandma would die before me so she could hold my hand."  At that point in time my mother was very frail and needed open heart surgery.  I told my mom what Jeannette had said and my mom smiled and said, "Only the Lord knows when it's our time."  Well, as it turned out my mother died three months after Jeannette.  She died on Christmas Day.  I miss both of them so very much.  I know in my heart that they are together and rejoicing in Gods Kingdom.  If I could turn back the hands of time I would insist on Jeannette moving back to Fresno and closer to me.