Someday baby girl, Someday.

As I sat next to here hospice bed watching her heart go up and down I had a feeling this would be the day she would pass.  I talked to her and read her scriptures from my bible.  I painted her toenails a pretty pink just like she painted them often.  I brushed her hair and gently put a towel over her face and cleaned it off.  I told her that she was going to Heaven soon and free from pain.  I cried as the nurse came in to tell me her heart was beginning to shut down. My baby girl was leaving this earth, leaving me.  Why, Why.  I cried out loud and bent over to kiss her as her last breath on earth took place. The baby I had in 1971 was gone.  I hurt so much.  I cried until I could not catch my breath.  The funeral staff came in and wrapped her up and took her from me.  I  managed to escort her body down the elevator and watched as they put her in the van.  I cried as they drove away.  Got into my car and screamed and cried so much.  Started the car and drove down the freeway and to my home hundreds of miles away.  Tears never stopped flowing.  Hundreds of cars and semi trucks filled the freeways.  I drove in a daze.  Arrived home at 2:00 a.m. Cried myself to sleep.  Woke up and cried some more. My beautiful daughter was gone.  Gone to Heaven.  Someday, I do not know when, I will see her again.  Of that I am sure of.  Someday, I will be completely happy again.