May 2008. Tears, Laughter,Hugs,Emotions,Life,Love and above all else, Faith in God.

She insisted on taking me and Diana to go out to eat right after we arrived at her house on that sad day in May, 2008.  Look at her, she has a smile and at that point in time she was optimistic about her health.  She kept trying to reassure me that once the doctors removed her breast that the cancer would be gone and that she would go on to live her life.  At times, I felt like I was having a heart attack.  My heart ached to much.  Everything was happening too fast and way out of my control.  Before I knew it, she was in Chemotherapy and Radiation.  Then Cat Scans, MRIs, blood transfusions, hospital stays, etc.  My baby was going through so much.  The worse thing that can happen to a parent is having an ill child.  A child that has terminal cancer.  A child that is being disrespected by certain so called "loved ones."  A child that cries out to you in pain, extreme pain, a pain that makes her loose her breath.... I cried out to God for help.  I asked God to please take me instead.  Take me Lord, Take me instead of my Jeannette, my Nettle Poodle.  Please, Lord, Please make the pain stop.