My Three Granddaughters

Bianca, Ashlee and Loreal

December 25, 2010.  They were together enjoying the day with each other.   Ashlee and Bianca wanted to spend some time with Loreal to comfort her because it had only been one year that Jeannette had died.  I was at my dad's house in Corcoran, Ca. comforting him because my mother died on December 25, 2009.  It was a difficult time for him too. I think about how Jeannette would have loved to be with her children especially at Christmas time.  She used to love decorating her home and having a big Christmas tree full of presents for her loved ones. I think about my mom always asking my dad to make a Ham or Turkey for our Christmas dinner.  I always made sure to give my mom her favorite cream( visible difference).  It was expensive but I didn't care cause it was for my mommy.  It is now one day before the two year anniversary of Jeannette's death. My life is never gonna be the same. I miss her everyday more and more.  She did not want to die. She cried to me saying, "What about my babies,ma."  I shall never forget her sadness when she was told by her doctor that there was nothing more they could do.  I mean, I feel bad when I am at the back of a long line waiting to get tickets to concert and when I finally get to the front, the person selling the tickets says, "Sorry, no more tickets."  But, for a doctor to tell a patient there is nothing more I can do to let you live has got to be the ultimate devastating news.  It hit me like a bullet was entering my heart.  I cried with my daughter.  I hugged her and she trembled in my arms.  Now, I know she is rejoicing in Heaven so that in itself comforts me.  I miss her so much.  My Nettle Poodle, my baby girl.  I pray that Bianca, Ashlee and Loreal never get breast cancer.  I love them so very much.  And if Loreal is reading this please know that I will always be here for you, baby.  Unconditional Love.