SHE CALLED AND SAID, " GRANDMA, I CAN'T BE WITHOUT YOU."

Ashlee Sian

She called me today.  I was busy working.  She said, " Grandma, I can't be without you."  I didn't understand.  Ashlee had moved out of my place and into a three bedroom apartment with two friends.  She told me that she missed being with me and hanging out with me.  She said she realized there's no place like grandma's home.  I felt flattered but at the same time I thought about Jeannette. 

Many years ago when Jeannette was a young teen she moved out and into her dad's house.  I felt real bad and cried.  She was only gone for over one week when she also called me and said, "Ma, can I come back home."  I asked her why and she said that she didn't feel the love that I gave to her.  She said her dad's house was like a hotel.  You check in and nobody talks or even makes dinner.  She said it felt ugly when she would come home from school and to find out her dad and step mom had finished eating dinner and there were no leftovers.  She would ask her dad about dinner and he would say to her, "Call your mother." 

I immediately went over and picked her up and brought her home to me.  She never left again.  She and I were very close.  So, now that Ashlee wants to come back home I say YES.  I love her so much.  I bet if Jeannette were alive she would laugh and tell Ashlee that she did the same thing long ago. 

I miss my Nettle Poodle.